Endless hope was given but not the returns are bad enough for me.

random: Why must i always be the person? Why? Why? Why?

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Three days. It has been three days. Been three days. For NOT blogging. Ha ha. I miss blogging so much. Monday, i woke up then, i felt very headache and fever. So, i went to my parent's room and tell my mum that i don't wanna go school. But, at last, i went to school also. Cause Esther's history book is with me. And we need to stay back for history extra class. I don't feel good in school. Before maths, i asked Esther to help me call my dad as my head is very headache. It's so hard to lift up my head. Esther went and called. Thanks, bunny! My dad managed to come before recess time. I went to office and went back home. Luckily! If not, i shall suffer in school until 3.30 pm. ==

Dad brought me to the clinic straight away. I hate that clinic forever. Waited there for half an hour. So long. Got my medicine and went back home. Ate my bread and medicine. Doctor gave me fever, pain and antibiotic. All TWO TABLETS EACH TIME. How to eat? One day 3 times. Those tablets are so big. Eat and just swallowed it. Gulpppp. I slept from 11.40 am until 5 pm. I know i slept long enough. I was having headache the whole day. Not those normal headaches i had. It's more serious and even more pain. I didn't even went to tuition on Monday night for Mathematics class cause the headache seriously very pain although i slept for so many hours. So, skipped. Sicky girl.

Tuesday, went to school as usual. But, the fever already is gone. So, had to take antibiotic and pain for in case. School is okay. And, Munirah kept on saying to me, " Semalam demam, h ari ini, datang kacau orang pulak." =/ Went to kasturi. My dad came and fetch me and my friends go to kasturi. Reached kasturi. They went down first. Then, everyone went down. And I'm still in the car. They left me inside the car, too syok sharing umbrella with others. ==

And today. Finally. I was late for school. Serious. Prefect wrote down my name. :( Road block at Dataran Merdeka for rehearsal for National Day. Puan Norizan asked me, " Kenapa datang lambat?" Say the reason. And she said, " Pukul berapa keluar dari rumah?" "6.45am" "Lain kali, keluar rumah 6.30" Wahlao. I was thinking. If i said i got out from the house at 6.00 then she will sure ask me go to school at 5.30 lah. Crazy. I didn't take this offence so serious. Cause it did not involved me. Thanks to those fire engines and the polices and the armies. == Retarded. The police asked my dad to go. So my dad went, then he suddenly showed the signal to stop. Stupid. My dad almost bang on him. Dumb one. Then, the army asked the police, " Kenapa bagi kenderaan jalan?" The police said," Sorry lah." Wah. If my dad bang on you, can i say sorry to you? Stupid.

I don't want to give any hope cause it's so disappointing. Serious. I swear to god, that those feelings are too shitty for me to put hope on it. But, couldn't blame anyone cause at the first place, i was the one who put lots of efforts and hopes into it. But, whatever it will be, it will be that way forever and ever. Things about it shall just be rubbish to me. Whenever i put hope and efforts into it, it became dust and useless.

Tata.